Incomplete

I know how it feels
to want something so bad you once had, & now a part of you is gone, that'll never be the same
And unintentionally, you block out the rest of the world
because your mind is like tunnel vision
with you at the end
I know how it feels
to have the weight of the world, not on your shoulders
but right on your heart
& you use a shield of indifference to protect you from the weakness, but you give in
& you fall to your knees
suffused with overwhelming emotions, praying to God that everything will get better
but deep inside you know it never will
i know how it feels
to have everyone seem to know everything about you
but they only know what they see
so you fake a smile & you pretend to laugh things off
but every minute that goes by is another minute of lost love
I know how it feels
to have no idea of what will happen next
to be stuck
guarded by walls and there's no way out
prisoner of your own mentality
To wake up each morning & wish you hadn't
I know how it feels
to be out of place
where "home" is no longer [home)
but is where you long to be
they say love beyond your heart. love through your soul
so does love not exist
when your soul is incomplete?

Spring Break :)

Soo Spring Break just can't get here So far, im going to the beach & I'm bringing Nia & Talia down to Lake Wylie, South Carolina with me to visit my aunt. It should be pretty fun. Was suppose to go to Maryland BUT I decided I'd rather go over the summer, but my moms all "You have to get a job over the summer" -_- whatever. The weather's starting to look a lot nice & I'm ready to go swimingggg!! Hopefully spring break wont be tcoo awkward /: I have a feeling it will be [sigh) but all I can do is hope for the best & pray that our friendship will get better.

My life's been pretty hectic since the last time I blogged. But for now, it's pretty good. Except for the daily shit I have to put up with...But I'm still here so i guess that counts for something huh?

Counting down the days until spring break...THEN SUMMER:D